Hello my wonderful family,
I want to first off say THANK YOU!!!!! Thank you sooo much for the prayers and fasts that so many did. I really felt it this week and I am soo very thankful for them. You will never know how much they helped. I will try to expalin how they did in todays e-mail.
Well first off, Tuesday President Wada came and picked me up in Kouhoku and took me to the area Fujisawa to meet my new companion and to say goodbye to my last one. I didn't know how hard it would be to do that but I felt the strength of the Lord with me and He gave me a very clear, specific way to say goodbye. She acted like I thought she would but I was able to get through it. But I will say though that Tuesday and Wednesday were the hardest days I have ever experienced on my mission and even my life. I felt very alone and still had a hard time feeling the spirit. I knew that God was there and still cared about me but I wasn't hearing anything from Him. I didn't understand why. I really was in the pit of misery. I could feel the adversary's spirits surround me and trying their best to pull me down. I can't even describe the dark state I was in. I didn't feel like myself at all. The mist of darkness is very real and was very strong. I couldn't find my way out at all. I tried to shine a light but it was barel a glimmer. I was lost and just when I was about to give up the fight I found the true source of light. I was able to find my Savior and His light shone so much that the darkness dispersed entirely. His light filled my soul as I really took upon myself the atonement and gave it all to the Lord. Ever since I have been the happiest that I have ever been, since even before my previous companion. I am enjoying life and the mission. I am enjoying my companion and teaching by the spirit. I am goofy and fun. I can see it in my eyes how different I look. Now looking back I can see that before a week ago when I would look at myself in the mirror it was very sad. There was so light in my eyes and my smile didn't reach deep down. Everytime I looked in the mirror I thought I looked ugly and I couldn't understand it. But now when I look at myself I can't help smiling from ear to ear. I can see the light of Christ in myself. I can see the Daughter of God that I am. I am beautiful, even with no make up my hair a crazy mess. I look at myself and just smile. How amazing is that light of Chirst? How Amazing is the Atonement? Through it I was able to get out of the deepest darkest pit of despair that I have ever been in. I know that my Savior lives and I know that through Him we can recongnize who we really are and be filled with joy that can not be described. HOW WONDERFUL IS MY SAVIOR!!!!?
Ok now on to my wonderful companion and area. Well I am actually still in Fujisawa. Our apartment won't be finalized until this Wednesday and so we will be moving in on Thursday. But my companion and I were able to go to a ward party on Saturday and meet some of the memebers. And I am SOOOOOOOO excited to be working with them. They too are really excited to getting sister missionaries. All of the members were so sweet and kind. I really feel like this next transfer we will be able to see many miracles and do wonderful things. I have a feeling that this next and last transfer will be my best one. Oh and the church is HUGE. It is like a temple. I will send a picture so you can see it but it is so nice. AHHHH so excited. Now about my angel of a companion. Her name is Sister Ellingson and I absolutely LOVE HER. She is so much fun and we have been having a blast together and we are both really really excited to get to Yamato and work and see miracles. We are like little kids just waiting for Christmas. We just want to get started!! She is from Alaska and is on her 3rd transfer. Her and her family besides her dad converted when she was 11 or so. She has a great testimony and she is already one of my best friends. We are going to have a really fun 6 weeks together. Tonight we are having a movie night and eating popcorn and cookie dough. It is going to be a party. We are super excited for it. hahaha
I have really felt the Lord in my life and I have felt your prayers and love. Thank you soo very much. I really needed them this last and they helped so much. I love you all sooo very much and look forward to seeing you. Love you with all my heart,
Kenzie
